Who I will be

Luis Alamilla

Corozal Junior College

Personal Development

11 April, 2011

Who I Will Be

In the near future my main goal in life is to become a nutritionist and a health instructor. After I graduate from Corozal Junior College, I am planning to further my studies abroad, most likely a destination in Mexico known as Merida. I chose to take this career because I wish to help people with their diet and also how to keep them health and fit. Today most disease are caused by the manner in which people eat and not enough exercise. There is a high ratio of people in the world that live unhealthy and are unhappy about it. I am not only focusing on the physical part of a person bout also their mentality. Being in shape and feeling good of their self and boosting their self esteem. So my goal is to continue a couple years of studying and to learn of prevention of disease through exercise and healthy diet. Some of these disease or conditions include diabetes, hypertension, heart diseases etc. After all studies and career set on track is when I focus on settling down and having children. I would want to become a father of three children, and would want to raise them in the best way as possible providing them with education and everything they possible need to prepare them in life. I also don’t wish to provide just material things but also much love and support on whatever goals and dreams they might have. I would want to be a respectful person in both the society and as a family man. I would be known for being responsible in my job and respectful and unbiased to the people and helping them on and off work hours, or whenever I am needed. As a family I would wish to spend enough time with my family in trips and missing any of their childhood events if possible. I would want to be the type of person who would be honored and respected, or at least be remembered for something great in life. IF I become a very successful person I would also try to aid the community in any means possible when in times, donating to the less unfortunate, providing to the organization funds and to the needy. I would want to be the type of person who would give back to the community as the community has given me. I would want to teach me children these lesson in life and hope for that they learn it and not become spoiled and miserable people in the future. So in all this would be the type of person I hope to become in my life time.

I always had a dream to help people, not only through my career but as a passion. When I was younger I would always pictured myself as one of those people who were inspired to better the lives of others, such as the movie of Emanuel’s Gift. But as I kept growing up I became more realistic and realized that helping out others does not get you anywhere in this world. Everyone now strives for them selves and worry bout their own personal problems than dealing or helping others. The world today needs many good hearted people like Emanuel willing to make a change, they are few or but are often overlooked. Well I was inspired by the movie of Emanuel and I would like to help everyone, but we all know that’s impossible. The people I would mostly wish to help are the poor and disabled, for the poor are also linked with incapability’s. I believe in the future, when I become successful I would help my community by giving back, but through this movie I figured something better. After I have my career intact I will help the poor by instead of donating to the community, I would use the money to host a fundraiser to raise more money. I would host an annual marathon and try to get everyone to participate and donate any sum of money, would be accepted. Since my passion has always been running, I would enjoy this task, plus it links to my career I wish to pursue because it’s a good exercise, allowing people to live healthy lives. I would try getting all my clients to participate as well to help show support. Those would be my, methods to help others it is not as big as Emanuel but at least it would make a small difference in our country. I could never do something as big as Emanuel because I am a very shy person when talking in public. But I would still try to break the ice and get help from the ministers and others willing to help.

Relationship Development

Luis Alamilla

24 March 2011

Corozal junior college

Relationship Development

Coming Together

When it comes to first impressions in getting to know new people, I have difficulty expressing myself. I am a shy person so usually I don’t know what to say cause I do know how the person would react with me. But once I become use to a person I usually become more fluent with expressing myself, but still a little nervous. Once I have broken the ice I become a very likeable person. Then people get to see the type of person I really am.

One day from school I met this girl I really liked. She was a pretty short girl, with black hair and about my age. I would always attract girls by looking at them every minute and having them notice. If she looks back at me the same way, I am able to tell that she is interested. From there I would always have a friend know about this girl and tell him about her. Since I am the shy type I can never start a conversation with the person. So I would always have my friends do the talking for me, from there I would find an opening to do something funny or shameful to get the girls attention. If she starts a conversation with me I can take it from there. This is the initiating part of the relationship for me.

From there me and the girl would continue talking for a while till I run out what to say and run off, or get the feeling that the ice has been broken. From there on every time I would see the girl I would say high in a flirty manner, and try to pick a conversation every chance I get. From there conversations become more fluent and the likeness begins to grow between us. We also begin to share a little more about ourselves and past. This is the experimenting part of a relationship for me.

From this point we decided to start dating and start a relationship with each other. We begin to spend more time together, start sharing more personal things that we wouldn’t usually share with anybody. We begin to get closer with each other in a romantic manner, the physical contact increases in which kissing becomes involved. We would also become more comfortable in lending out our things to each other. At this point she would introduce me to her parents. This is the intensifying part of a relationship development for me.

This point has rarely occurred to me, if I reach this stage, this is where I would introduce the girl to my parents. People would always begin to see us together at school grounds, events and social places. Here we begin to trust each other and the relationship becomes serious between us, where I would consider falling in love with the person. From here the person would practically know everything there is to know about me. Would begin sharing same ideas and likes, in inviting her to come over for family events or watch a movie with me. This is the integrating part and the deepest part of relationship development that I have come crossed.

Luis Alamilla

Coming Apart

When people come apart is usually because when people come on to you at first they share a personality that is wonderful and memorable experience that you fall in love with.

But usually when couples become accustomed to each other their personality begins to change, they either show their true self or begin to take advantage of ones love and trust. This is the main cause where relationships begins to fall, well at least form my point of view.

When me and the girl begin to develop problems in our relationship we begin to loose interest in each other. We begin to have frequent conflicts with each other in public. Whenever we refer to each other we speak as the other partner is not there in the room with us. We then begin to hind some simple things from each other and begin to view every mistake the person does not do right. This is the differentiation part of relationship development to me.

If we believe we can work out things and strive for the better could be possible. But circumscribing stage has never occurred to me. If it does we always end up breaking up in the end.

Well if we continue to go in the same pattern, we are well on the way to breaking up with each other. At this stage we begin to feel less love for each other. We start trying to capture other people’s attention. All feelings toward each other become neutral and just start living like if the person is an extra burden. This is the stagnating part of a relationship development to me.

From here on we begin to have less frequent conversations and if we do we usually start quarrelling. We begin to avoid seeing each other, and we become spiteful and have fewer interactions. We come and go as we please; we no longer have lunch together and begin to change our routine.

When one of us can’t take it living this way we decide to end the relationship. I would usually choose to end the relationship in the easiest and best way a can as possible without trying to hurt the person. Endings are never because once you have become use to a person it is hard to say goodbye. This would be the hardest part of relationship in my perspective which is termination.

Sigmund Freud

Luis Alamilla
March 2, 2011
Psychology journal
Corozal Junior College
　
　

Sigmund Freud

Sigmund Freud was known as the father of psychoanalysis, he was a physiologist, a medical doctor, psychologist and influential thinker. He first worked in close collaboration with Joseph Breuer, where Freud elaborated the theory that the mind is a complex energy-system, and structural investigation of the proper province of psychology. His theories consisted of the concepts of the unconscious, infantile sexuality and repression, and he proposed a tripartite account of the mind’s structure all as part of a radically new conceptual and therapeutic frame of reference for the understanding of human psychological development and the treatment of abnormal mental conditions. I chose Sigmund Freud as the theorist that I believed the most because he is the most well known theorist and most importantly because of his theory on psycho sexual stages and the 3 parts of personality that he had develop for us to understand the conscious and unconscious forces that guides the individual. The three parts of the personality model consist of ID, Ego, and Superego. The id is the primitive part which is present at birth, it is unorganized, inherited part of the personality. Its purpose is to reduce tension created by our primitive drives such as those relating to hunger, sex, and aggression and irrational impulses. It would function in regard to the pleasure principle, which its goal is to receive immediate gratification and reduction of tension. In reality most people are prevented demands of the ID from being fulfilled. Such as receive food when hungry and carry out sexual drives whenever we feel like. The ego is the second part of the personality, it deals with reality. The ego functions on the reality of the principle, it ensures that our impulses can be expressed in an acceptable manner that could be conscious and unconscious. It would restrain us in order to maintain the safety of ourselves and help integrate the person into society. The ego can also influence in making decisions that controls actions and allows for a higher capability of problem solving that the ID would not be capable of such higher level of thinking. The ego is responsible for the higher cognitive functions such as intelligence, thoughtfulness and learning, and also the benefit of actions that delay gratification. The final part of the personality trait would be the superego. It is similar to the id in the case that it is unrealistic to an extent. The superego would be the last too develop, usually occurring in the pre adolescence. It gives a sense of the rights and wrongs of the society as well as family that is passed down to the person over their lifetime. The superego consists of two subparts known as the conscience and the ego-ideal. The conscience part deals with information about what’s bad or forbidden, prevents us from doing morally bad things, such as self punishment, guilt and remorse. The ego-ideal on the other hand gives rules and standards for behavior that motivates us to do what is morally proper, such as pride, value, and accomplishments. Basically the superego helps to control the id's impulses, making them less selfish and more morally correct. I agree with Sigmund’s theory because everyone has to have an ID where they have a need that is primitive in which there behavior is acted upon instincts before the mind is fully able to think for itself. I relate this to my personal life for example when my sister was born, as a baby she was not able to think she didn’t know from right or wrong, but what she knew by instinct was that she needed to feed. Whenever a baby is hungry or felt sleepy or simply jus needed attention by instinct they would cry to meet there required needs. So for my sister to meet her pleasure principle of services of immediate gratification, needs, desire, wants she would receive it by crying. The other part that deals with reality is the ego. In this part of the theory as u get older you begin to become able to think for yourself. You learn that some desires cannot always be met. This part of my life when I was younger I realized that everything has a limit no longer could I receive whatever I required when I needed it. For example one day when I was trespassing on a person’s yard picking grapes when a dog attacked me, crying never got me anywhere. I was faced with reality that next time I just simply run from the dog or avoid getting into that situation again. The final stage is super ego I defiantly agree because as everyone gets older, we all learn of moral values. Without the super ego stage I would not be the outcome of this world. Everyone has a form of fear in violating values and moral codes, which appear in a feeling of either guilt or shame. In my life as growing up I have been teached of having morals whether it is at school, home or even at society thru religion by going to church. I believe everyone should follow up to this theory because everyone has a conscious that gives them a sense from right or wrong and they freedom to choose on which they wish to act on. For example when not doing homework, or telling a lie can lead to trouble. Other theory of Sigmund Freud that I would agree on is the Psycho sexual stages. In this theory he developed on how our sexuality started from a very young stage and developed from various fixations. The oral stage begins from birth to 2 years where the baby begins to experience libidinal gratification through the mouth. I agree with this theory because it relates to the personality model where the ID dominates completely, as I had also stated an example of this stage in the ID trait. The second stage is the anal stage which begins from fifteen months to three years. This stage is where the infant changes from the sensitivity of the mouth to the anus. I agree with this stage because at this point ego starts to occur in conflict with ID, where as the child begins adjusting to the parents demands. Such as being toilet trained in which the key anal experience that is required. The Phallic stage is the third psycho sexual development stage which spans from the age of three to about six years. In this stage the child genitalia become his or her primary zone of sensitivity. Here the child begins to become aware of their bodies, the bodies of other children, and the bodies of their parents, basically learning the physical difference between male and females. In this theory there is still a conflict between ID and Ego for example in the boys case he would feel jealously and emotional rivalry against the father, where his ID wants to kill the father but his ego based on reality principle tells him the father is stronger of the males competing. The fourth stage is the latent period which spans from the age of six until puberty. Unlike the past three stages, here the child must derive the pleasure of gratification from second process thinking that directs the libidinal drives towards external activities. I agree with this stage because here is where sexual urges become suppressed. The final stage is the genital stage which spans from puberty and adult life, occupying most of the life of a man or woman. Its main purpose is to have a psychologic detachment and independence from parents. Here the persons concern shifts from instinct into applying secondary process thinking to gratify desire symbolically and intellectually by means of friendship, relationship, family and adult responsibilities. I agree with the genital stage because it comes about the strong sexual interests and eventually maturing in become self dependent and moving from the dependency of others. This is a stage that eventually everyone has to go thru if they have fully advanced from the previous fixation stages. In example when I grow up and go study abroad once a finish my career I am able to be independent no longer requiring help from my parents. Here I become responsible of my own actions in life and learn to deal with it alone for the most part of it.
　
　　

Who I AM

WHO I AM

I am a young student attending Corozal Junior College. I could say or be considered as a second to third year student because after the end of third semester of school I had stopped attending due to some miss understandings. I was studying under the bio/math major group but had dropped it because math was very difficult and I had not received the background I required at high school. I am currently enrolled in the course biology major only. I also attend night school, where I take 2 courses in the night and six in the day. I am currently under a lot of pressure and stress due to homework, where most of the times I only receive six hours of sleep each day. I am currently living in San Pedro but I seem to spend most of my days here in Corozal due to my studies. Here in Corozal I stay with four other students and a guardian, who watches over us. I believe I am a very lucky person because I have my parents to provide my every need, and supportive of any career I decided to part take. I am here studying in this college for myself and parents because they insisted in me having a better background before sending me to pursue my career. Cause if it was up to my choice I would have wished to pursue my choice of career right after high school. My personality has changed from my childhood days since primary school but has remained the same all thru high school. I still consider myself as being that shy person when it comes to getting to know new people. But I believed that I have great personality and a positive attitude once I become accustomed to the person, as well as they getting to know me. I can also be realistic at times depending on the situation. Most of the time I am in a good mood and always happy especially when not feeling tired and getting enough sleep. My lifestyle at school is practically the usual each day. I would just get together with friends for break periods and spend the time playing cards, chatting, or even at times doing homework. I would say I am living a simple life at the moment, with nothing special but the regular happening each day where I just finishing up school. I also am saying that I occasionally get depressed at times because I am no longer an active person in playing sports. Ever since my accident on my motorcycle, where I had fractured my right foot has disabled me to participate and enjoy the sport I’m good at, being football. I am also hurt by the fact that I can no longer able to do what I do best and known for, which is running. I am never going to be able to enjoy my hobby in participating in marathons or just doing the long runs for the exercise. Because of one mistake in life I have ruined what I love doing the most and have made my self depressed and unfit. So I would classify my self as a regular getting through basics of life working to make a better outcome in the future through school.

Answers for the movie Precious

1.      The factors that contribute to Precious having low self-esteem are negligence because she never received the love, affection nor proper food and shelter. Another factor that affected her was excessive criticism and influences from her mother, where her mother stated to her that she is no good and influenced her to stop school. Also negative experience from her childhood and child abuse as being rape from her father also is a factor of her low self-esteem. Also another factor that did not really seem to affect precious self-esteem but could still be a factor is her physical appearance.

2.      Precious displayed several signs of low self-esteem the first being fear, she had fear of losing her child and to an extent a fear towards her mother. She also showed her anger and the little control she had over it. Another sign would be her focus on weaknesses; she had trouble identifying her good qualities. Also another sign present is when she disconnected from reality; she would begin imagining things such as being a star or singer by day dreaming or zoning out.

3.      The defense mechanisms used by Precious are denial, repression, suppression, displacement, projection, and reaction formation. Precious use the defense mechanism of denial when she denies being raped by her father. She also shows mechanism of repression and suppression when she wishes to push back her bad memories. She also uses displacement when she comes with a bad attitude at school after being bothered by her mother. Also she uses projection towards her teacher since she has strong dislikes of herself then why would the teacher care either.  Finally is reaction formation where precious at first puts up with her mother as herself being happy when the person comes over to the house to inspect them.

4.      The neurotic needs precious displayed are the neurotic need for prestige, personal admiration and sufficiency and independence. Her neurotic need for prestige because she always day dream in being appreciated by the public, being famous and popular this may also apply to the neurotic need of personal image where she wants to be admired by her self-image view and not for who she really is. Also the neurotic need for independence and sufficiency at first where she refuses to receive help from the principle at her office by saying nothing is wrong when she really is pregnant from her second child.

5.      Precious increased her self-esteem by relaxing and taking time to visualize her life, also to realize her strengths, noticing what she is good at and not expects perfection. She also stopped putting herself down and started to helping and complimenting others. She also stopped complaining about everything, just living life to the fullest and doing what she loves to do which is writing and reading.

6.      I learned a very important aspect in life. I learned that everyone has their difficulties in life and that it is up to you if you wish to continue living the way you are or at least try to strive for the better and not give up. I would recommend this movie to all those people who believe life is hard and don’t have a chance in being able to better their lives. There are many people in the world who are weak minded and think they should give up in life, when in reality there are people who live worse than them and precious is a perfect example of this.

Autobiography: who i was

I was born on March 25 1991 at time that was near Easter at place that at the time was a small town called San Pedro. My parents are Luis Alberto Alamilla and Melinda Alamilla. We are a family of four with one other sibling, my younger sister Nayomi Alamilla. When I came to the world I was a baby to suffer a lot because I was born with asthma which I inherited from my mother. I use to have horrible asthmas attacks, that at times my parents did not know what to do with me or if I would make it. Both of my parents worked hard. My mother owning a small store, and my father who worked two jobs as a manager of a gas station during the day and as a DJ of a night club at San Pedro. Most of my childhood life I grew up without parents since they had to work all the time. I was raised mostly by my two cousins who wore like brothers to me because my grandparents didn’t give much support from my mother’s side and my other grandparents use to live in Belize. Growing up for me was hard for I remember I was sent to school before I turned two because there was no one to look after me. I kept getting sent to different kindergartens, I at least got sent to 5 of them 3 that wore private and two that wore public. As a young child it was a very bad and mischievous without the proper guidance from my parents I only depended on my cousins to show me the way of life. When I entered primary school I was the age of four. I attended the Roman Catholic school for 5 years. I Remember in beginners was the first time I got in a fight, can’t remember the reason but I do recall stabbing the person with a pencil and getting sent to the principal office. There I was made to kneel down in her office for hours with huge books in each hand as punishment. I kept getting in fights all through my early childhood; to me it was a way of solving problems and proving who was the baddest. Well that’s what I learned from my cousins. When I use to get home most of the times my parents would fight, they seemed miserable from too much work. There was a time that I would barely see my father because he worked so much that I only saw him once a week on Sunday at seven in the night when he would be waking up. To get away from this I would often bang school or as soon as school was down I would run to my cousins’ house and hang there with all his friends. They wore all like family if anyone would bother they would protect me, show me how to play sports and how to live for myself. After standard two I got move to a private school known as L.I.F.E. My mothers place me there because I was behaving too badly in the other primary school. I was a very smart student, use to usually come in third of my class, but was too much of a trouble maker. At LIFE institute I gained more attention this is where I became a more positive person. I was a popular student because everyone always enjoyed the class clowns; here was where I had my first crushes. I was a very friendly person, my life seem to change at this point. My dad had upgraded to one job, my mothers business was going good so she was around more. In this school is where I met my friends that I grew up with and bonded for life, my first crushes and girlfriends. The rest of my primary school life was the best years of my life all through graduation. At high school my parents had decided to send me to Saint John’s College at Belize City. I remember my first day at school was the roughest I didn’t know anybody and no one knew me. At that school was an all guys school here I wasn’t appreciated much. I was treated like an alien since lived most of my life in San Pedro, I was being discriminated. The first year was the hardest I had to make friends the hard way. I was an ignorant person kept getting into trouble and don’t peoples remark lightly. I was suspended once and was at the bridge of getting expelled. The other year I was adapting to the school and my environment. People wore changing their views of me. In Belize I stayed with my grandparents, they lived to the bad side of town. Here was I met some friends from next door. They wore friends that I had made for convenience. I gained respect from them and they wore like my back up. I eventually took them as family. The third year at johns was when I got in real trouble. One day after school I was hurrying home to catch the 3:30 flight to san Pedro so I took a short cut through an alley. Here I was stopped by two men. Before I could say anything they jumped and threatened me. I remember someone shouting police and the two guys’ fleeing away. I just picked up myself and rid home. I was traumatized by this that I remember shaking for a whole day. After this my parents had decided for me to continue school in san Pedro. Nearly after an year at school my closest friend from school who lived next door from me passed away. He was drinking with a couple of friends when he invited me over. When I arrived all three seemed drunk and he was stubborn of going for a swim. They left and I had stayed back to lock the house. When I arrived at the dock there was no sight of him.  When I spotted him I quickly jumped in the water and took him out of the water and he was immediately taken to Belize he passed away 5 days after the incident. Then 2 weeks later my closest uncle passed away from a car accident. These are just things that had just scarred me for life. I graduated from San Pedro high School where I now attend school at Corozal junior college, where I am currently on my last semester and hope to graduate.

Emotional IQ test

Understanding our emotional strengths and weaknesses is necessary to affect change and growth in our lives. Intelligence allows us to comprehend and internalize the world around us, but without emotional intelligence we are unable to handle the many pressures, roadblocks, and challenges that stand in the way of our goals. Awareness of our emotions is the first step to living a more balanced and focused lifestyle.

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Your Weakest Emotional Category is: Confidence

Recognizing your emotional strengths is equally important. For example, strong assertiveness can be positive, assuming you are not domineering in conversations and relationships. Strong empathy can be beneficial, as long as you don't put the interests of others before your own well-being. Moderation is the key to successfully handling your emotions.

Your Strongest Emotional Category is: Empathy

What are the categories of Emotional Intelligence?

• Empathy
• Positivity
• Openness
• Personal Self-Awareness
• Social Self-Awareness
• Confidence
• Motivation
• Emotional Expression
• Emotional Balance
• Assertiveness
• Self-Reliance
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